The Thin Daily: Back... In Full Throttle

It's been almost a month since my last post. And all I have to say for it is... I'm sorry. I have gone through a really tough break up, a few break downs, a near hospitalization, and the consequent general loneliness and depression. I have lost most of my friends and I have gained back every last pound that I had lost (I had gotten down to 123!). What a sucky March and start of April. And in the midst of all of this shit, I turned 18. Yay? Yea, I guess it's "happy birthday, you weigh a whale and a half." But all of this ends now.

I am back and ready to do this for the umpteenth time. I will get down AND STAY THERE. I have a new internist (internal doctor) that is really great. And I mean really. She understands my condition (minus the ED of course... I mean she IS a doctor after all) and where I stand. It's probably a good thing that I didn't go in when I was at my low weight, she would've caught on. She had me get some blood work done to see if I am anemic and to see if I have a thyroid problem since I am always tired. She's also going to put me on an antidepressant (preferably Prozac since you can lose weight with it) that doesn't interfere with my ADD meds and I started a BC pill a few weeks ago that has made my boobs bigger (which is really neither here nor there if they disappear once I get back to my low weight). But over all, things are finally looking up. I am going to be happier, have more energy, and finally get back on track.

So here's my plan. I'm going to call it the Five Star Plan.

Every day I must meet all five stars before I go to bed. Which are...

1) eat less than 500 cal total (record all food eaten as usual, but this time I will be posting it on here as well)

2) exercise for at least 250 cal

3) drink at least 8 glasses of water

4) complete AT LEAST 50 crunches

5) record weigh in at the same time every afternoon and directly after, post thinspo and my daily stats on here!

I must lose this fat. I will be thin. I will do this. I hope all of you are doing well, reaching goals, and getting positively skinny! I missed you guys. And thanks so much Eliena for your friendly and encouraging comment! It meant so much during the month or so to know that I had support and a friendly voice if I should've needed it.